I am not naturally mean either, I am just a strange character who doesn't show kindness as outwardly as I think kind things. It's really weird. My friends who are really close to me know I am nice and welcoming and loving but those on the outside always think I am mean...but I'm NOT!
Or maybe I am. I took a spiritual gifts test last weekend at the request of my husband. My lowest score was....HOSPITALITY! Go figure!
Well with us taking part in a new ministry and everything I am going to try to be very conscience of the fact that this isn't a strength. I am just not the type of person to meet new people, talk to strangers and be huggy. I am trying though! But then with this confession out in the open (I think its quite obvious anyway) I fear people will think I am fake. So if I hug you or smile A LOT its not that I am faking affection or happiness I am just trying to display it in an outward way what I am thinking.
Oh man, I sound nuts. But seriously, I am really trying to create relationships with new people and create a comfortable atmosphere for newcomers. Oh, and I am throwing a party at my house on Saturday...that's hospitable, right??
This post has turned into a pat on my own back but its just an open post of something I struggle with and something I am aware of and working on. God help me :)
2 comments:
Don't worry girl, your words may have well been my words:-) People always think I look mean or angry... but I'm not! Good luck with your new life of hospitality:-)
You're so funny. I think it's very noble of you to "admit" this if you think it's a weakness, but I, of course, know that you are one of the kindest persons I know! :o) But I will say... I don't remember many "huggy" times??? hahaha... oh well! Our friendship is much deeper than that!
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