Big Belly Blues

6 Weeks before I had Dalen


24 Weeks with Cola

Today, I am 24 weeks prego. (Barely passed the halfway mark of this pregnancy.) I feel like I am as big as I was with Dalen when I was ready to deliver. This is going to be one BIG gal! This morning just seemed difficult. Getting in and out of the shower I noticed my balance is off, I am struggling to make my normal stretchy clothes go as far as they can go before I need to shop for more maternity clothes (I've already been once!) and of course my back is still in so much pain.

Since its been cold I have been on the hunt for my tall, warm, black leather boots. I haven't been able to find them anywhere! Finally, I had to ask my husband this morning if he would get on all fours to hunt under the bed for them. I just knew if I got down there I wouldn't get back up and I definitely wouldn't be able to fit under the bed if the need occurred! Just about the time Mario was a 1/3 of the way under the bed reaching for one boot, Dalen came around the corner and looked so confused and asked, "Mommy?! What is Daddy doing?!" BINGO! Within seconds both boots were found and I arrived to work fashionably warm in leggings and an old stretchy dress that I wore as a top. YAY, for old clothes that bring new surprises!

Mario and Dalen picked me up breakfast at Hardees on the way to work and then dropped me off. (I had left my car here the previous night) I must admit today I feel great. I am so energized and ready for our big service tomorrow. But it seems like everyday I wonder what it will be like to not only leave one baby behind but two babies behind as I leave for work everyday. I miss Dalen so much when at work! He sends me texts typed by Daddy and videos sending kisses my way. If I were to be totally honest I would have to admit, I love to work and obviously need to for the financial benefit it brings to our family but its so hard not to be able to have a little more of a balance! I wish I could work part time for a while when the baby comes.

So here I sit with my belly not quite under my desk anymore and keep reciting my old quote I thought over and over when I had Dalen: "You can look how you feel or try to feel like you look."